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INSIDE MY HEART <3

first of all.. i want to say this is new to me.. but since this is a blog site. so it’s not bad to express my feelings once in while.hmmm…

before i go to sleep tonight i just want to say i’m sorry to God. I know i’ve disappointed him a LOT, i’ve hurt him unintentionally. i just realized how i’ve wasted my 19 yrs of existence pleasing other people. (pleasing my friends, my not so friends, my previous relationship and most of the time my circle of closest friends.) i’ve done a lot of stupid and crazy things. things that i’m not proud of. things that hurt our Father. 

vices, lying and hatred are one of those. i tried to please other people, i forgot that on the judgement day… they’re not the one who’s going to judge me. how much i have pleased them is not the criteria… i forgot that the one i should be pleasing is God, with a good…. nope…. i mean with a perfect reason.. and that is because he’s the one who will say if i did good here on earth or not. and not my friends or not so friends.

today i wonder why are some people is so into expressing their innermost feelings for their boyfriend, friends, mother, father or siblings via FB, TW, Tumblr, myspace, etc (note: i have nothing against that) but why are they not that enthusiastic on expressing their feelings to GOD? i admit… i was one of them… sometimes that i’m so caught up with my emotion i forgot that the reason why i’m so happy is because God wants me to be happy. and i should be thanking him first and not my boyfriend or friends. (i can thank them after^^)

i know i’m not a perfect person and i’ve hurt him often as i could ever imagine. i also know that there are a lot people who is more God Loving. and i salute them. 

i just want to let you know that i’m just 19 turning 20 and i regret the years i’ve wasted trying to look good for others. i was so busy fix’n myself, i didn’t realized that God wants that kind of attention too. and i’m so sorry i didn’t realized that sooner. some people will make time to go out,sleep,drink, go to concerts (wait outside for 24 hours just to be on the 1st line) but can’t find time to worship and thank god or say sorry for all the pain we’re causing him. we get so LSS to love music, rock, rnb,gothic,rap,etc but can’t find time to listen to worship songs. can spend 1-12 hours or more surf’n the net but can’t give even a glance to the bible some doesn’t even have a bible but completed the HP, Twilight books, etc. they have the money to buy expensive dress,bags,magazines,cosmetics,gadgets, jewelries,shoes but can’t save up to buy a bible. i don’t say don’t buy or do those things (coz i buy and do those. but i will make time for our god), i’m just saying dude c’mon, god is there for you 24/7, he saved you from all your sin. the least thing you can do is to appreciate it and give back the glory. it’s not that hard. dude you don’t have to carry a huge cross to pay for your sin. JESUS already did that while we are all a sinner. 

we always complain how life is so unfair. but if God is fair… why would he give his son and let his son suffer for our sin. don’t you think that’s unfair to him and to his son too? (i complain a lot too. sometimes i don’t intentionally complain but i guess it’s our human nature. what’s important is after complaining we’ll find the heart to understand and accept it.) it’s also hard to give 2nd, 3rd,4th chance. esp when they kept on doing it over and over again. it’s hard to forgive the people who you really loved who find the heart to hurt you so bad. so bad that you don’t know what to do. let’s thank god that he is not like us and that he knows when to be fair or not. the word unfair is not bad as it looks huh.

a lot of rumors are going around like the end is near. that they are calculating and hidden message of the bible blah blah… “Dude why are you so busy trying to figure out when is the end of the world rather than preparing yourself to be presentable to God. He’s not going to give you a prize if you decode the bible. the bible is there not for us to decode. it’s there for us to read and learn. it doesn’t say find X or find Y. use the bible to spread the good word of our god, the promises of god and don’t waste your time scaring/telling people that tomorrow is the end, i already computed it? c’mon! you should also know that only GOD knows. instead of telling people that tomorrow’s the end try telling people that God loves us. that God wants you to have your hearts desire because he’s the one who gave you those desires. God loves you so much that he gave his only son Jesus to save us. those words are used all the time because that’s the truth and dude you don’t need math to know that.”

And if God is coming rejoice because you will meet the only one who can love you unconditionally. rejoice because he said that when that day comes and we are united with our father, he will wipe away all the tears all the pain that we’ve suffered here on earth. there’s nothing to be afraid of if you know that you’ve accepted GOD as your Saviour and your only one. 

note: i have nothing against other religion, i just want to express how i feel for our God who saved us and loves us deeply and unconditionally. 

MORE by Tyrone Wells <3

Sometimes I get so tired
Just trying to find a place to lay my head
I look up to the sky
I feel the warmest light comfort me

I’ve seen the great heights
Reminding me I’m alive
I don’t want to die
I don’t want to waste another day or night
I know there’s something more
Than what we’re living for
I see it in the stars
I feel it on the shore
I know there’s something
I know there’s something more.

I think we’re all afraid
That we may be alone, alone down here
We all want to have some faith
At least that’s true in my case, to just believe

I’ve seen the great heights
Reminding me I’m alive
I don’t want to die
I don’t want to waste another day or night
I know there’s something more

Than what we’re living for
I see it in the stars
I feel it on the shore
I know there’s something

This world may crumble
Into the ocean
It could all end tonight
I undermine you
Than try to fight you
My only soft sunlight
I am breathing 
I am breathing
I am alive

I don’t want to die
I don’t want to waste another day or night
I know there’s something more
Than what we’re living for
I see it in the stars
I feel it on the shore
I know that I am alive
I don’t want to die
I don’t want to waste another day or night
I know there’s something more
Than what we’re living for
I see it in the stars I feel it on the shore
I know there’s something more. 

Temptation

I really need to learn how to fight my temptations.

It hurts me every time I fall for it. I have to stop feeding my temptation. I’m afraid that someday it will kill me….. >.<

It’s a SIN to feed bad temptations…. >.<

MADSI c’mon.

one step at a time… God is with you…~

GO FIGHT MADSI!!! 

sorry GOD… i’ll fight better next time… i’m sorry~